2004-07-10-5:52 p.m.
Still don't get why I can post now but not at 4am when the server is busy. Whatever.

Why are people snobs? Everyone has an expectation or a precaution to life. Sometimes you just don't fit into that. It's ok, get someone to pat you on the back, blow into a tissue. You're just a loser in some people's eyes. I don't get it though. There is all this PC crap floating around and who actually believes it?

"People are deeper and more spiritual then we could possibly know!"

OK... so everyone says that like we came out of Brave New World. If it's true, that we are somehow more than our appearance and first impressions, how could people get snubbed? Not sure. We all have our check list on what we want and some of those boxes are vanity.

Nice Butt? (check)

A Car? (check)

Cash??? (double check!)

Self-Confidence and a Goal in Life and He Knows Where He is Going? (X-mark)

I feel like I'm Solomon's Ghost, "Vanity of Vanities!" Goals always change for me. I don't know what self confidence is, I just do what I have to do. And I don't know what I'm doing in life... oh well. Today I woke up with the idea of working for the FBI. It sounded like fun, I'd just stay away from all the terror-division crap. I'd rather work with dead bodies on concrete, thank you.

No Cash, I still don't know what a Nice Butt means, and I loan a car from the parents. I still live by the idea that if you have a good time together and you like talking, then that's all you need. Cash: enough for me to live on and whenever I get married for my family. Butt: The only way some girl is going to touch my butt is if she's something special. Car: Whatever runs well. I hate soccer moms and their satan machines.

But expectations aren't all bad. They keep you from getting killed. Dark alley with some guy asking you for the time? Keep walking! I still think clothing has a statement to say about our pseudoselves.

Clowns wear what they wear because they want to appear a certain way. What makes that so different from all the other people in the world? "Don't judge me cause I wear black." OK, so why do you wear black? But again, there is no point in making an expectation about someone, it's better just to chill and talk.

But we just have so many "I want I want!" It's always about "I." Well Mr. Hot-Pants, "I" doesn't go anywhere. People are people, that's who they are, they aren't who you expect them to be.

Knew a guy who kept dating jewish girls till he found the one that would meet his expectation. He broke a lot of hearts. I guess there is a chance we could find the exact person we want because of all the different people out there. But who knows, they are probably living in Europe already married!

Why can't we just chill? Have fun, talk about the guy with the mullet who just passed by, go to Sea World.

But this was a waste to write I guess. Everyone will have their expectations. And if everyone wants the rich jewish doctor/lawyer/business guy... well, I'll be alone for awhile. Views always change though; one dies another born from the ashes. It's just best to ignore them all and be honest with yourself.

previous - next