2004-07-06-12:37 a.m.
The nerve along my neck is hurting again. That's where all the new bumps formed. It feels as if my skin is going to suddenly pop like a huge bubble.

Spent most of the day thinking about Sarah. Then another part trying not to think.

Spent part of the day angry at all the words that were exchanged and then let it go by the end of the day. Words are words, just words. A lot of words in anger don't mean much. A little truth in each word but in anger it's throwing mud. Who can top who in insult, who can make who feel one's own pain the most before it's over.

Why do we fight about silly things? It was my fault, I was agitated and brought up stupid shit. But sometimes she'll start the fight because she'll get angry at what I say, but I'm not always clear about what I said. Sometimes I think it's personal and she'll be angry and not want to talk about it.

She's open about how she feels but other times she's very closed off. She has her private life but maybe I'm just stepping on her toes and don't even know it? So why do we keep fighting for? What's the problem?

Still she said one thing that is still making me angry and it was very personal.

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