2004-04-16-4:48 p.m.
It's hard to shake the melancholy. I've always thought that every problem that arises I could take on, solve it, defeat myself and grow stronger.

But some issues never die. They are over, but under the floor boards the soft heart beat continues on. Everything is fine and you smile to your friends but only you can hear the soft beat of the heart. It gets muffled, but the heartbeat comes back and then muffled again.

Poe would understand.

Forget, forget. There are some emotions that can't be stopped. You can have all the answers you desire and all loose ends tied, but the scar is made. It stays there, a reminder and it causes melancholy.

The drama is over, but the effect is still there. Who can defeat an emotion? If anything, we try to replace it with another emotion. The trama, the heartbreak... it's all said and done and now one is left with only an emotion: melancholy.

Who wants to be the broken hero? The man who carries the emotion, the event that is over long ago. He has one thing at least: hope. He moves on, and on and on... but he never forgets, he CAN NOT forget.

We need to forget, it's just too much. The past that will always stay the same, no matter how many times you play it back in your head, it will never change. Life is different now, the actors are different, the setting is different, YOU are different. But the past is the same and the heartbreak is the same. Why remember? Why keep it?

We have already taken everything we can from the past and now it's apart of us forever. The event though must be erased so one can move on beyond melancholy. One must move with hope.

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