2004-01-20-5:43 p.m.
My body feels burned out and I've had plenty of sleep.

I'm still job hunting at one place, they said they could have a place for me in late Feb or March. It's a nice jazzy atmosphere with good people. I don't know where to work during the wait. Either I find a job from the campus directory or I could always clean Master Quynh house or Dawn said I could iron Mark's shirts.

Heh, the scroungings of a college student.

I stopped doing the book. Didn't want to spare the time to do it anymore. It would be more fun with friends. I didn't want to send the authors 5 bucks.

I'm depressed. My mom called me stupid. In the past she has called me an embarrassment and wish she had an abortion. I've never had anyone look out for me in my life, so I've always looked out for myself. I've never loved, but I don't believe in heavenly guidence anymore to find that perfect someone.

The real world is a very cold place.

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