2004-01-03-6:37 p.m.
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For the year, I'll be updating each day with afterthoughts.

Day 1 Warmup: Skipped, I'm not a warmup person.

Day 2 The Love of Your Life: "Today gaze at everyone as if they are the one true love."

Oh boy. This was odd because I was making judgement calls as I stared at every woman that passed. Even an attractive female server stopped and said "oh, do you need something, you were staring at me." I kepted going 'are you the one.' No too fat, no too skinny, no that face looks dull, no that tanned woman is some gansters dream.

I came to the conclusion (actually I thought of this beforehand) that wondering about love is a waste of time. When it happens, it will happen. It will hit you like a 2*4 from behind and leave a bloody mark. How can anyone just look at someone and say they are the love of their life. One needs at least some interaction and after that caution so that your heart doesn't go to nether-nether-land. One for sure shouldn't talk to a woman with the concealed notion that soon they will be together. Hogwash and fiddle sticks. Aye, talk to people like they are human beings. Don't force interest or conversation, silence has it's place you know. Wondering what ifs is such a grief filled existance, just live. Interact with the people you happen to walk into and show them good and find the good in them. Then if they are right, you might love them or you might not. But snooping around for love like a dog with his nose up will bring fakeness and it won't turn into anything. Don't make up a lie, love at first sight is merely a wish, a selfish one.

Day Three, "Today throw something away you like."

I realized I'm attached to useless junk. Mainly because I feel useless junk has value. Makes sense right? So many things we value but in reality means nothing. I think throwing away something has a cleansing effect. If we are so attached to junk that has no value, what might that say to our concern for other people? Maybe nothing :D

We shouldn't be attached to anything, nothing should hold a person back. We should hold up something we like and declare, " I do not need you to live!" It is true, I need not a cell phone, a fancy mug, a computer (except for D-land), or a nice looking watch. I am not going on some religious trip here but one where my life wouldn't be tied down to a "idol." What does the idol do? He is nothing, a fake god. I have shoes to walk in, I have a shirt to protect me. I have things for good useful practical reasons. Not because they bring me comfort, but because they bring me progress or maybe someone else comfort.

I need to clean this room up actually. I threw away a stuffed animal bug puck with antenna.

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